Poet’s Corner | ‘Lost In Waiting’


LOST IN WAITING

Lost in waiting
Tripping on two ended words
Looking for comfort
Anywhere it will give

Feeling uneasy
Trembling in word salad
Brain inside it
The constant echo
Of continual searching
For messages

The past
Understanding it
But it won’t let go

Confusion
Definition make no sense
Skin feels raw
No settling into ease
What is so unstable
The mind is unfocused
Tearing security to hell
Dipping into the acid
Of disbelief in reality
Breathing nonexistent
Trembling replaces it
Nothing soothing
Calling in the troops
Of stability

Will it come
Concentration
Calmness
All will settle
In its time
Not anyone else’s

Does one feel the corruption
Does it call out the demons
Or send them away
Looking into the eyes of the devil
Unsettles any calmness into fear
Anxiety and uncertainties

Let go of the pain that haunts
Escape into fantasy
Seek the rewards
Permission granted
Join the fictional characters
Freedom of behavior
No punishment

A feathered cat inside a canary
Like a woman inside a suit
And a man inside a gown
Freedom to feel the real

Real it is
Afraid of the words
What tempest they hold
But surrender to the “who”
The “are” and the “streak”
Learn to be fully “unrestrained”

© j.kiley 2018
Free Verse

It’s All Very Long Ago From Here | a poem

It’s All Very Long Ago From Here

Being disconnected
Feeling in a rage
Conspiracies inspected
It’s bull-shit
In my brain

Knives sliding through it
Flesh warm .wet . gooey
Feel life draining
Into a rotten apple
When the wormy caterpillar said:

“You’re dreaming
Outside your head again”
What could I reply back to him
“I’m out of head trips
They went long ago”

© j.kiley
Free verse

Dream In New Dimensions | a poem


Dream In New Dimensions
by j.kiley

Drifting in a visually invisible expanse
Keep in mind . keep in sane . keep in place
The spirits will wander
Time unmeasured will keep beating
And while alive
Time is on its own

We fear what will follow now
But it is already here . the answer
It’s always been here
Fear won’t let go . to let it in
Magic is the source for freedom to be
Imagination is its protector

Feel the depths of thoughts blend in the feelings
Freedom of dreams awakening . making life real
Beware the ones who deaden life into nothingness
Having a free life real takes courage
Reach for what’s beyond what shuts us down
Make us more while helping others loosen their grip on fear

© j.kiley ’17
Free verse

A Child Waiting | a poem

A CHILD WAITING
by j.kiley

I am writing from the past
To be read in the future
It is time to tell my story
To let my self open
Free to say it out loud

Too much to say
To write on this page
I am okay beginning
Telling my psyche-confessor
Finding the words to speak

Words the silence kept locked up
Hiding in the clouds
Soaring with the crows in silence
Unable to feel . no touching
It will lock me up

Have worked years to follow the maze
Guiding my child to a freeing
The feelings will begin their release
If it happens . when it happens
It will be surprising

It may last but a moment
Before their voices force me
The abusers . the thieves
They cursed my desire
Alone with them in the darkness

Innocent sensations tainted
Destructors abuse lives
Haunting the hallways
Waiting to get back in
They do sometimes

Time to unlock the secrets
A gentle directness is essential
A demanding necessity
Recovering who I am
The one holding the first memory

In the dark being raped sexual
Now they wait at the door
It seems they will always be there
Waiting for another turn
Finding their way back in

© j.kiley ‘17
Free verse
#metoo

Exception of Belief | a poem

EXCEPTION OF BELIEF
by j.kiley

Inspired manic sensibilities
Lead to an interpretation
Of the unknowable existence

Rare exceptions
Fall under the category
Of Belief . I believe

It’s whether they do . or not
Does that make it relevant . or relative
Having any discussion of Reality

Questions . wanting answers
Always demanding something
Of what We know . or don’t

© j.kiley
Free Verse & Non-sense