At Eternity’s Gate | movie trailer

“maybe god made me a painter for people who aren’t born yet” – Vincent van Gogh

At Eternity’s Gate

Rating . . . PG-13
Length . . . 1h 50min
Genre . . . Biography . Drama
Opening . . . 16 November 2018 (USA)

Julian Schnabel’s At Eternity’s Gate is a journey inside the world and mind of a person who, despite skepticism, ridicule and illness, created some of the world’s most beloved and stunning works of art. This is not a forensic biography, but rather scenes based on Vincent van Gogh’s (Academy Award® Nominee Willem Dafoe) letters, common agreement about events in his life that present as facts, hearsay, and moments that are just plain invented.

Stars:
Willem Dafoe . . . Vincent Van Gogh
Rupert Friend . . . Theo Van Gogh
Oscar Isaac . . . Paul Gauguin
Mads Mikkelsen . . . The Priest

Director . . . Julian Schnabel
Writers . . . Jean-Claude Carrière . Louise Kugelberg . Julian Schnabel

Poet’s Corner | ‘Lost In Waiting’


LOST IN WAITING

Lost in waiting
Tripping on two ended words
Looking for comfort
Anywhere it will give

Feeling uneasy
Trembling in word salad
Brain inside it
The constant echo
Of continual searching
For messages

The past
Understanding it
But it won’t let go

Confusion
Definition make no sense
Skin feels raw
No settling into ease
What is so unstable
The mind is unfocused
Tearing security to hell
Dipping into the acid
Of disbelief in reality
Breathing nonexistent
Trembling replaces it
Nothing soothing
Calling in the troops
Of stability

Will it come
Concentration
Calmness
All will settle
In its time
Not anyone else’s

Does one feel the corruption
Does it call out the demons
Or send them away
Looking into the eyes of the devil
Unsettles any calmness into fear
Anxiety and uncertainties

Let go of the pain that haunts
Escape into fantasy
Seek the rewards
Permission granted
Join the fictional characters
Freedom of behavior
No punishment

A feathered cat inside a canary
Like a woman inside a suit
And a man inside a gown
Freedom to feel the real

Real it is
Afraid of the words
What tempest they hold
But surrender to the “who”
The “are” and the “streak”
Learn to be fully “unrestrained”

© j.kiley 2018
Free Verse

Vincent (Starry Starry Night) | a song . a painting & a film


Lianne La Havas – “Starry Starry Night” (Loving Vincent OST)

Vincent
[Starry, Starry Night]

Starry, starry night
Paint your palette blue and gray
Look out on a summer’s day
With eyes that know the darkness in my soul
Shadows on the hills
Sketch the trees and the daffodils
Catch the breeze and winter chills
In colors on the snowy linen land

Now I understand what you tried to say to me
And how you suffered for your sanity
How you tried to set them free
They would not listen, they did not know how
Perhaps they’ll listen now

Starry, starry night
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze
Swirling clouds in violet haze
Reflect in Vincent’s eyes of China blue
Colors changing hue
Morning fields of amber grain
Weathered faces lined in pain
Are soothed beneath the artist’s loving hand

Oh, Now I understand what you tried to say to me
How you suffered for your sanity
How you tried to set them free
They would not listen, they did not know how
Perhaps they’ll listen now

For they could not love you (love you)
But still your love was true
And when no hope was left in sight
On that starry, starry night
You took your life as lovers often do
But I could have told you, Vincent
This world was never meant
For one as beautiful as you

Starry, starry night
Portraits hung in empty halls
Frameless heads on nameless walls
With eyes that watch the world and can’t forget
Like the strangers that you’ve met
The ragged men in ragged clothes
A silver thorn of the bloody rose
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow

Now I think I know Oh what you tried to say to me
How you suffered for your sanity
How you tried to set them free
They would not listen, they’re not listening still
Perhaps they never will

Written by Don McLean

van gogh starry night variation

Starry Starry Night (Over the Rhone) | Vincent van Gogh

Election Anxiety | What’s Ahead

‘How Understanding Depression Helped Me Through Election Anxiety’ | Review by kiley
Article on Bipolar Advantage Blog

scary face behind the curtain - by kiley 17

scary face behind the curtain – by kiley 17

The title intrigued me. No fear – the article is simply written and some is about understanding the Bipolar-IN-Order state of being. Working on mood changes in a beneficial way. No one is perfect so it is a continual process to work toward my goals. Increasing my self awareness is essential. As I state No one is perfect but I am identifying when something is at too high an intensity level. I make a valiant effort to lower the intensity. Sometimes by my partner just saying Stop [I do hear Stop in my own head – not as perfect a method though]. Not pretending its easy is important to remember. Patience and letting go into a Zen state – calm state is extremely important to achieve.

The part of the article that pertains to a great many of us who feel Election Anxiety [a major issue at present] and the imaginings of this writer [me]- how I have reached many fantasy levels in my dealings with Election Anxiety.. It is a regular discussion in our home – election results – that is. My partner and I banter our thoughts as though in a tennis match. She feels the same about what we are saying regarding the Election Results but we express it in our own way. I imagine most of us think of ways beyond legalities of how to solve a problem like . . . (I even Hate saying his name – it gives me the creeps). When the thoughts of our upcoming future create overwhelming FEAR and ANXIETY – I start using Magic Thinking [it makes me feel better momentarily – but then I keep having to come up with more reasons the Inauguration will never happen]. Does it raise the level of Intensity in a manic state or draw one into a depression or sometimes into the in-between state. Either way there are methods in sorting out and letting go of the pressure.

This post on Bipolar Advantage regarding Election Anxiety is more than just for those who are Bipolar. The message reaches across all who are concerned with the insanity surrounding us in the political arena; and how do we go about living our lives unaware of why we feel such FEAR – F.E.A.R. = (False Evidence Appearing Real).

Spend a few moments and read this article. It may help you find some answers or at least temporary solutions needing repeating.

For Complete Article Click on LINK – it will take you there.

– kiley

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