PRIVATE WRITINGS: A NOVEL OF TRUE FANTASY
Written by Jennifer Kiley
Post Tuesday 4th November 2014
WARNING: ADULT LANGUAGE AND CONTENT
Not Suitable For Children.
ALL CHARACTERS ARE FICTITIOUS.
Anyone Resembling Anyone Living or Dead
Is Purely Coincidental.
private writings to dr. annie haskell psychoanalyst
I am the storyteller using imagination fantasy feelings & thoughts
to discover self soul eternal serenity & bliss
but to most importantly tell the best tale ever after upon a time.
see you down the rabbit hole.
[only meant for the seers to understand time to come]
I feel a need to end this part of the journey with one last jolting note. As I was prepared to spend my day with Alison and Scottie I checked my emails. There was one from Annie. Her e-mail stated: “My husband is missing in action. He has been MIA since I first arrived in Europe a few weeks ago. It seems like centuries. We meet as soul mates through the oddest circumstances. Something needs to be done about it. I will be home when the two years are up. Honest. I mean it. Love, Annie.”
I don’t know what to make of the words Annie wrote. What does this all mean? We’ll all find out together.
For now this is all I want to write.
But this is far from over. I believe we will all be together again.
(c) jkm 2014
[for me this statement means more to me now than ever] “I think writing really helps you heal yourself. I think if you write long enough, you will be a healthy person. That is, if you write what you need to write, as opposed to what will make money, or what will make fame.“ — Alice Walker
AN Afterthought I feel needs to be said before I stop writing for now. It is a letter filled with my feelings for you, Annie Haskell. You were my psychoanalyst but you were also my friend. I built up such intense feelings for you. I wrote this in hopes someday you may understand how being with you made me feel about you.
I believe I am in love with you. After the last time I saw you, I went someplace where I could be alone with my thoughts only of you. You looked so beautiful. Your smile showed me you really cared. It wasn’t a pay by the hour arrangement between us that makes you care. You do care for me as I do for you.
I want to feel your arms around me, holding me close to you. And I want to feel my arms pulling you close into my body. It feels so right for us to share these brief moments. They are timeless. The feelings stayed within me when I had to leave.
What part of me stayed behind with you?
Can we share this feeling of love someday again? Together can we be in love & feel it is alright to feel so close. I only imagine you feel this way but inside, deep inside my heart, I hold you forever.
This very moment, I would like to feel my lips touching your skin. Kissing your lips. In this moment, I want the sensations to start & never end. I want you to be mine forever. But I don’t want to own you or claim all of your time. I just want to feel our love together.
Ps. I love you Annie. Always & Forever. Are you the One? I feel the answer is yes.
Coming Back To Life – David Gilmour – Royal Albert Hall
The beginning always starts out
With a dream.
It is all a dream
In our own nightmares”
— Madison Taylor
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