To All Who Are Still Following . I am mending slowly. No Med Pot ever again. I have slowly begun putting August together. I have been fortunate to have the best Acupuncturist who has helped me feel able to eat & to take in liquides. Foods the most difficult. I may not be a Post A Day for awhile but I will do my best. 5 Words have already been set. Pot set the whole thing off. It caused a Cyclic Syndrome of keeping nothing down. My illnesses escalated. I hope I have settled into the recovery side & no more flair ups. Check out the 23% who cannot use Med Cannabis. It can and will make you feel terribly ill. To staying alive & healthy. – j.k 7.22.18
A statement that I felt I needed to write and that I feel needs to be read: “Healing from child abuse of any kind takes more than a lifetime. If there are still scars remaining, which there are, then there exists evidence. Years, I have been trying to get beyond what my abusers did to me. Oh, yes, I am in a different place than I was when they were around me but everything I do has a cause and effect from those buried and not so buried memories. Intimacy is the greatest thing they destroyed in me. I have tried pulling that part back together but it always haunts me. I feel hurt quite easily when there is nothing that has been done to cause this hurt I feel. It is just something the abusers taught me to expect. So writing this rather intimate description of intimacy is my way of telling my abusers fuck you. I can find a place inside of me that you were not able to completely destroy and I have been and am trying my Damndest to heal that part of me.” ~the secret keeper~
[youtube=https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rYEDA3JcQqw&w=670&h=407] Adele-Rolling In the Deep
I will admit to a secret-moi guessed wrong. I thought the line from the song was Adele singing: “Set Fire To the Rain.” Oops!!!