i did not recognize you at first

i did not recognize you at first
by jennifer kiley
sept. 4/5th, 2012

the glowing light enters in

my love for you

my love for you
touches my soul
with such depth
of maturity

it has been tested
throughout time
and finds now
it aligns perfectly

our meeting
now in this present
it is declared
we shall do good

our union
is a divine friendship
awakening within me
a dormant being

who now sees
the reason for all
that has come
before now

we are
meant to be
to the other

all along i felt
i was just
waiting for you
to enter my life

i didn’t know when
but it was
in my heart
that you would come

i didn’t recognize you
not right away
but each meeting
more meaning
was released
between us

you didn’t know me
when i was someone else
yet you knew
of my life

not for long
you felt who i was
then you knew me
before i breathed a word

my disguise
was complete
for most
no idea was

they didn’t
or couldn’t see
that all that time
i wasn’t me

you suspected
and were correct
when i confessed
it was a secret

i never wanted
to keep it from you
it just was timing
and how to
tell you the truth

the deception
wasn’t meant to be
but i lived in two worlds
balancing each
to a degree

what relief i felt
when i confessed
you could know
who i am

but still a secret
to most
but i did come out
once courage came forth

i wanted
to be me
the parents’ child
no more

and now
as you see
i finally
have been
set free.

black magic woman-santana

7 thoughts on “i did not recognize you at first

  1. “Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.” ~Bob Marley~


  2. Bob Marley’s words fit perfectly the way i want love to be. You make me blush by your words about my poem. The muse who inpsired my words and the meaning they were trying to convery are filled with the intensity of my feelings of connection with the one who inspired me to write this poem. I thank her for believing in me and wanting to hear what I have to share and showing me her support in all parts of my life. Inspiring me each time I need to find a way to express what is travelling around in my mind, heart and soul and letting me be part of her life and to share in what she needs and creates, also. She is such an inspiration to many but I want to particularly thank her for her inspiration to me. It has caused me to grow in a positive way and feel like I mean something and that what I do is important, not just to me. Thank you, A.L. Jennifer


  3. What a beautiful ode to your love, Jennifer! I am so happy that you have found this and cherish it deeply. Your words stun the heart with their passion. May the two of you delight in this love forever. 🙂


    • I am hoping for that. My feelings for this person go deep into my soul, heart and mind. There was something special and very familiar about them from the first encounter. Passion grows in many ways and is expressed with love that can be as pure as an angels divinity. That is what I feel for this person I write about in my poem. I think and feel they know the depth of the feelings that are within me for them. It is rare to find such a person in which one feels such a numenous connection. With this person it is my very soul which is touched by their love. I feel completely loved by them and I love them just as deeply. ~the secret keeper~


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