i remember you grandma emily with love in my heart

i remember you grandma emily with love in my heart
written by the survivors

i read someone’s post just a few moments ago. the person had written a letter to her mother to express just how she felt about her. it was honest and a well deserved mother’s day card and letter. my response is as follows:

happy grandmother’s day emily
i love you always

you are so right in expressing these feelings toward a mother who was horribly abusive. if my mother were still alive my letter to her, if i even wrote one, it would be filled with the same kind of sentiment. i would want to send to her a letter that would force her to face the truth about what she did to me and how it has effected my entire life.

happy grandmother’s day emily
i love you always

she knew while she was alive how i felt and she showed me in her will just what she thought of that by leaving me and my siblings exactly $1.00 a piece from an over $650,000 estate. she said in her will that the lawyer sent to each of us in a certified letter with the $1.00 check enclosed: “that they each know why they are getting this.” a raving bitch to the end. she was every kind of abusive to me. you think of an abuse and she did it. do you remember the film “Sybil” with Joanne Woodward and Sally Fields and also, do you remember the film “Carrie” with Sissy Spacek and Piper Laurie? Well, those two mothers combined made up my mother.

happy grandmother’s day emily
i love you always

so i do understand. even the “m” word is something that i have a hard time using or saying out loud. and when she was alive, whenever i would recieve any of her weird snail mail, i would dread opening it. i would take it to my therapist’s office and have her open it. then i wasn’t even sure if i wanted to know what was in it. as i said it was always so f-ing off the wall certifiably weird. she was either trying to convert me or accusing me of making my younger brother crazy or go off on some tangent about my sexual abusers and apologize for my father. She would say he wanted my forgiveness but he didn’t understand what he had done.

happy grandmother’s day emily
i love you always

now that she is dead, she isn’t gone. she haunts me in my dreams on a regular basis. i think she died maybe 5 years ago. i don’t do well with time. so, i hope you get that i am trying to give you support even though i have obviously been triggered into going off on my rant on my own letter “m.” i revised this after i decided it would become a post dedicated to my mother’s day gift to my own mother.

happy grandmother’s day emily
i love you always

if i want to honor mother’s day, i would thank my grandmother emily for loving me so much and being a safe place when i was staying with her. she showed me what love was and she gave me the best hugs and taught me music and how to write. we even created a special alphabet to secretly write to each other so no one could decipher our secret messages. we talked on the phone every day after school. i love her with all my heart.

happy grandmother’s day emily
i love you always

she always protected me from my mother when our family would visit her home for dinner. when it was time to leave i would throw my arms around my grandmother and lock my hands together so that when they tried to pull me away from her, i wouldn’t let go. i told her: “i didn’t want to go back to that bad place. please don’t make me.” i begged really hard and tried holding on. i was never strong enough to hold on tight enough. they always broke my grip and took me back to hell.

Prometheus

Prometheus
By Jennifer Kiley


Prometheous 3 Minute Trailer

Prometheus is Ridley Scott’s prequel to the Alien Tetralogy. It is, also, the name of the ship that came long before the Nostromo, the ship that so famously carried the first voyage of Alien with Sigourney Weaver playing the character of Ripley, the only human survivor plus her cat named Jonesie. She was, also, the Amazon Queen who stood up to the “Get Away From Her You Bitch” Alien, from the second of the Tetralogy titled: Aliens.

Ridley Scott helped to define this genre. In Prometheus, with the aid of a fine cast and great writers, he creates a foundation mythology that takes place in the late 21st Century. A team of space explorers follow a star map discovered among the remnants of several ancient Earth civilizations. The team travels to the farthest corners of the Universe which leads to a distant alien world and an advanced alien civilization where they are about to discover a clue to the origins of mankind on Earth. Or so they think. Instead they discover a threat that could lead to the extinction of the human race and must engage in a terrifying battle to save humanity.

This film is charged with excitement, danger, discovery, and a revealing of something unknown that is frightening to comprehend. Remembering the film Alien, we know what transpired among the discoveries of that crew and the devastation it brought down upon them.

What does Ridley Scott have waiting for us behind the hidden parts of this trailer, that will terrify and make us want to look away, and yet compel us to watch. As Ridley Scott reminds us yet again, “in space no one can hear you scream.”

Prometheus is:

Drama, Action & Adventure, Horror, Science Fiction & Fantasy

Directed By: Ridley Scott (director of Alien and Blade Runner)

Written By: John Spaihts, Damon Lindelof, Jon Spaihts, Ridley Scott
In Theaters: June 8, 2012 Wide
20th Century Fox
MPAA Rating: R

Cast of Prometheus:
Noomi Rapace, Michael Fassbender, Guy Pearce, Idris Elba, Logan Marshall-Green, Charlize Theron, Ben Foster, Sean Harris, Kate Dickie, Rafe Spall, Patrick Wilson


Prometheus Full Trailer 2